I have a tendency to gravitate towards things that I cannot have. I recently found myself looking back at my life, where I have been, people that have come and gone, love that has been lost. I think that somewhere inside of myself I have struggled with the idea of always having something. Whether it be self-confidence, the 'hard-to-get' attitude, the right job, or that feeling of knowing when someone is the one. It doesn't matter how independent I think I am, or how many times I tell myself that I don't need anyone, I still end up in the same situation. The best way to describe it... relationship addiction. I have always been the girl who doesn't need a guy but constantly finds herself 'in a relationship'. I am tired of always needing someone. I want to wake up tomorrow and be content with myself, content with being alone. I want to look back and say that I was exactly the person I thought I would be.
I want to speak positively, curse less, tell the truth no matter how difficult it may be. I want to be someone worth having. With every ounce of life in my body I believe that all of this will happen, and is happening, starting today. I am ready to gravitate towards the things that I do have. I am strong, and I know that the greatest love of all is still with me, every step of the way.
"And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you."
[1 Peter 5:10]
